Child Of Rape

Something was always off, my family couldn't keep stories straight I never had any proof but suspected that she just did what she had to I never pressed the issue much, I figured it wouldn't hurt to wait Just kept it inside and made it seem like I really had no clue I guess that i had to start somewhere I guess we all don’t get the same start I guess we all have our cross to bear I guess my life meant hers was torn apart Child of Rape I really didn’t choose that life to live I really didn’t want my mother broken Didn’t know what her life had to give Fate was never kind Life was no easy ride Cage was in her mind Fate a tie to bind Through the years, learning the pain in her life before I was born With each year deciding to let my questions wither and die Now for the rest of my life, the only thing I can do is mourn Because I loved my mom so much, I just accepted the lie I had to be a source of constant torment Always guided me the best she could She never got to be happy and content A lifetime of only being misunderstood I guess that i had to start somewhere I guess we all don't get the same start I guess we all have our cross to bear I guess my life meant hers was torn apart Child of Rape Fate was never kind Life was no easy ride Cage was in her mind Fate a tie to bind Held on to the lie upon which my life was built A child of rape is something I will always be Carrying pain of each and every tear she spilt Despite it all, I know that she always loved me I really didn’t choose that life to live I really didn’t want my mother broken Didn’t know what her life had to give I never really knew the ways she was hurt before I arrived I just wish I could have found out when she was still alive I never got to help my mom through her pain I never got to help rid the shame of that stain It wasn’t my fault, but i will always carry that guilt It wasn’t my fault, but i will always carry that guilt It wasn’t my fault, but i will always carry that guilt It wasn’t my fault, but i will always carry that guilt